Hoo basically said it all!!
I am sorry that youve had to go through what you have Skyman. And the suicide thoughts are very silly considering you have got somewhere to go in life! Its clear to see by your input to this forum that you are a very well mannered, intelligent person it would be a waste if you were gone Skyman
Up until about the age of 16 I felt quite lost with my family, never did quite fit in but I bet so many people feel like that within their family when they are young. It does get better, much better!
I know its not exactly the same thing but I moved schools 5 times while I was in education and always found it very hard to make friends and the ones I had made friends with never stayed in touch when Id moved to a new school. It used to upset me quite a bit but then I realised that the majority of the people you will meet in school arent still going to be around you when you leave.
Once you start college or uni, there will be a whole new group of people to make friends with that are more likely to stick around for longer as you grow older and start doing things you want to do and going places you want to go, you'll start to gain life long friends that have the same interests as you.
One important thing I've figured out, the people you can trust most are your family and loved ones.
Afterall, Im only 21 and I'm currently lookng forwards to moving to Portsmouth to start a new life with my future husband and finally get a job outside the family company and buy a new house!